Man, has painting...

made me realize how damn impatient I am. How I run through life claiming to "feel" but not really feeeeeeelingggg. Ya know, I do all these things that are inside me like I paint, I take photos ( alas ANOTHER photographer with a little 5MP digital camera), I read, I act, I work in the music field in a creative position... but damn, I could be actually GOOD maybe even GREAT at some of these things instead of ok -- if I would just take a moment ....reaaaallly take a moment. Okay, I am good at what I do for a living but even at that I can be better. Today I decide that I will make a commitment to myself not to be scared to feel and feeeel forreal, foreal...