Brutally cold...

Got a new Isabella Fiore bag today. Its so hot! BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...was oh so cold outside today. I needed something to cheer me up :) There - got rid of the brutal cold...

sonia-belle: Appointment in Samarra

sonia-belle: Appointment in Samarra

Greys Anatomy makes me cry...

every week! I mean everything about the show is phenomenal. The music is superior too! Glad Sandra Oh (Christina) won that Goldie Globe - she's my favorite, well she and Meredith. The show is groundbreaking in so many ways... most inspirational for me is that the creator and executive producer is a Black woman who right at this very moment is opening doors for people like me...Thank You, Ms Rhimes!
}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I bow to you!{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{

Had a family party last night to celebrate my cousins retirement. It was at Nobu-NYC. I love the food at Nobu so I was front and center. See, I am one of those flaky people who often decides at the very last second that I "changed my mind." Come to think of it..I have been motivated a lot lately (ya know, to actually follow through on my planned plans.:) ) Wondering to myself if its the recent Buddhist practice I have begun. It has been remarkable for me. Without sounding like a robot...I really do see and feel the benefits of the practice. AHHHHHHHHHH! I sound like a robot! But anyway I do. So, it is what it is, i guess. Anyway, back to the party. So we get there and are waiting for my cousin to arrive. Oh, its a surprise, I forgot to mention. SO anyway, while we wait who do I bump into but one of the most influential men in music waiting to be seated. So he comes over and says hello to me. I know him. I used to work for him indirectly in the past. Make a long story short he is interested in me working for his very successful company. I am not sure if I can deal with going to the same place day in and day out (Done many times b4 and ALWAYS hated it)! I like my freedom to travel all over the world while on a project.. I'm a consultant so I work for myself, from wherever I might be and I make very good $$...well, I just started to so....would I be being greedy to do that plus my own consulting. (No question mark needed-its rhetorical.) :) Vamos a Ver.

Dont Disturb This Groove...

Me, my parents owned a nightclub when I was growing up. Well actually more than one but always at least one. In the late 80's early& 90's they had the biggest club in town. I remember being able to go to "the club" -- thats what we called it-- at night when celebrities would come to perform. I met Lisa Lisa and Cult Jam (and let me tell you I was mega excited!), met New Edition and later BBD - oh, you couldn't tell me and my sister NATHAN, NADA! (we were the ISH), the guy that sang "AND MAMA USED TO SAY-TAKE YOUR TIME YOUNG MAN..." Kurtis Blow was there (didnt meet him though was too young then), The System who arguably had one of the hottest songs EVER with Dont Disturb This Groove...right?!! SO fucking "fantastical!" Yeah, those were THE DAYS. I was so happy then. I am the oldest of five and we had a rocking house ALL THE TIME. Its the reason why now I cannot just be "in the quiet." I must have a TV on, a radio, Ipod- something! I need background-energy. So many days I wish I could snap these cute, little, danty fingers of mine and be back in 1988 when my mommy was still here and my family was all in one house - even though we were mostly fighting:) It was the single best feeling I have ever felt. I hope I will have this fullness again when its time for me to start my familia. In the meantime, I talk to my mommy in my dreams, live for holidays, and now have neices and nephews added to the par-tay.

Lost in Brooklyn...

Today was moving day for my brother and who was enlisted to help get things to his FOURTH FLOOR walkup!?
Mi, Me, Moi!

Its was kool and his apartment was very cute. Okay, well the apartment was kool but getting there and getting outta there was pure H-E-L-L!! I was a sense of direction-less moron!! I now refuse to have a car without navigation . It is now a necessity. MUY PRONTO!

Wha!?

These days I am living my life vicariously through my girls...mis chicas! As I have finally found the love of my life for the first time in like 7 years...okay really like 4 years (we have been together for 2) but the guys b4 him were music industry guys and well, they dont count!

So...my friend Wendi calls me today and it goes a little like this...

Wendi... " I feel like such a loser!"
Me... "Don't we all girl, but why do you?"
Wendi... "I did it, I let Mark...!"
Me... " Laughing...What? Well, Wendi, come on, you let him spend night after nite with you -- I mean what did you expect?"
Wendi... "I know --- UGGGGHHHHHHH!!!! but I just feel so badly because of Greg...


SIDEBAR... Greg is the FIANCE. But Greg lives in Roma...as in Rome, Italy and Wendi lives in LA. Mark is the ex with plenty of baby mama drama and commitment issues...Okay, back to the story...

Me... "Well don't beat yourself up girl because at the end of the day you have got to be true to yourself, ya know...so how do you feel?" I mean do you want to be with Mark...HOW WAS IT?"

Wen.. "Not good..." "Much better with Greg." "With Mark it feels like a chore."

Me... "YIKES!" "Well, to me, this was a way for you to figure out what you really want -- let's be real -- there were still unanswered lingering feelings there that you didnt really know what to do with. Now you can move on with Greg without regrets." "But promise me this...you will NEVER, EVER, EVER, EVER, EVEERRRR tell Greg about this no matter how bad you feel about it...It will ruin everything!!" "The old ladies are so right when they say NEVER tell a man EVERYTHING, it will bite you in the ass because their egos dont allow them to move past it...believe me I know from experience." "Let's just put this behind you and keep it movin'"

Wen... "Yeah, I hear you...

Me... "I'm serious!!" "DONT!" "By the way -- where is Mark now?"

Wen... "Downstairs!"

Me... "Wha!!?????"

I hope this ends well because I was really looking forward to visiting her in Roma...I love Roma!! But really, I think she will be okay. Its just right now it just happened so she has to swallow it first (no pun intended!) Heeeheeee...

Back to acting class...

I dont really know why I stopped doing the most enjoyable and theraputic thing I have ever done. I absolutely LOVE acting class. Now, I am not one of those I WANT TO BE A MOVIESTAR types. Just an art type. My goal is to be in little plays that can take place on a street corner for all I care. Its just the thrill of the transformation. Going from myself to someone else in less than 60 seconds. Oh what a thrill!

Since I last dropped the ONE class I was taking at HB Studio and never got a refund maybe they'll have me back for a lesser fee this upcoming semester. The spring semester when my spirits are so high that a mere walk down Christopher Street evokes a Lucky Charms jump ( you know the one where your feet touch in midair!)... Vamos a Ver!

The Friendly Skies...

Is there an invention better than that of the airplane? And can you imagine what kind of drugs the guys had to be on to even THINK of it during their day...and the balls it took to actually attempt to create and FLY one?! WHOO!!! But damn sure glad they did...damn sure glad! I mean what is life without travel? Even with the current high prices, damn near getting naked going through security, (And if your are like me ALWAYS being "selected" for further "screening". I am a last minute chick and often book a flight the day b4 travel...so I do it to myself, i guess.) getting on "puddle jumpers" when need be, circling when there's air conjestion (scary thought if you reaaaly think about it), and every now and then the pilot miscalculating the landing --swooping down only to pull back up to try again (Nervewracking to say the least! -- Such a tease!). But even with all of that, I find myself on a plane every chance I get!
So anyway, I just flew home to NYC this morning and was thinking as I always do. "Who are these people that I am flying with?" "Are they from the departure or arrival city?" I typically start with the clothing. Woman next to me this morning:

• Long, black, very worn leather trench coach (and it was not vintage"), black faux (read: cheap, cheesey) leather bag and boots.
  
• I think to myself she must be from MICHIGAN (the departure city)

Woman across from me:

• Bright, red down feather vest, jeans and red leather PUMA's
• Now she didnt look cute but it was obvious she was from NYC possibly a Jamaican chick from Brooklyn. I am almost positive she was West Indian with that bright color coordination

A couple ( I name them as a couple because --- You guessed it -- THEY WERE DRESSED ALIKE:

• Matching green, Spartan sweatsuits!
  
• I wonder who are the Spartans? Then they turn to reveal ...MICHIGAN on the front, So no need to figure where they "represent"

OOOOOhhhhh but wait it gets worst! ANOTHER couple:

• Blue, mesh MICHIGAN STATE sweatsuits to match!
• What is with these folks (yes...folks!)?
  

And the rest kinda went like this....a few businessmen, a few chic Blondes, a skater type and a backpacker (who knows where she was from)...then I wondered, why oh why were they in Detroit!? Oh me? I had on tall black (very) high heeled boots, a black cashmere coat, Citizens of Humanity jeans, and a black tee under a blazer...the NYC uniform, I suppose. Wonder if anyone was wondering where I was from!?

June 4, 1865...

It was June ---the summer --- the 4th of June --- to be exact --- 1865 --- UNITED STATES OF AMERICA. Millions of people were let out of the shackles of slavery.

"...Where do we go?"


2006. I am going to see as much of the world as possible. "How you like that!?" great ancestors. "Am I doing you proud?" Just gonna live day by day doing what I want to do! "How's that!?"

You know for a while I was never all that proud to say I am of slave ancestry but I am now, I so am! I am a living breathing fruit of the tenacity, strength, and power of a great people. What's wrong with that?! If I were Latin I would be waving a flag every chance I got too! Unfortunately, we have no flag to wave. Well, the USA flag -- which even though it (the US)has its faults. It is built by millions of immigrants and a large portion the labor of my people. It didnt turn out bad, huh?

I dont want to go on and on about this. Just suffuce to say that instead of trying to figure out how much white I have in my bloodstream, or what native american runs thru me -- I now am more interested in how Black I am and how can I find out who my Black (African) ancestors were. Is it impossible to know exactly? Maybe. But I will forever continue to live their dreams. I will travel the world, love without fear, and LIVE, just LIVE....LIVE with reckless abandon...

Right now...

Worked out today. Feeling really gooooood! Just got off the phone with one of my business associates, D, with whom I am currently working on a ringtones project. He is in Hawaii after having hung out and networked (I hate that word but...) in LA for the Grammys. Lucky bastard! I am so wishing I was in Hawaii or ANYWHERE hot, sunny, with palm trees RIGHT NOW...I am very much OVER the winter. I am a hot weather lay by the beach type of chick. At the beach any chance I get!



....How about the Grammys? I am reading on other blogs that most people DID NOT like them. We have known for some time now that the Grammy winners are determined by a small group of people who are not always up on pop culture. Hopefully the system will be reformed so that the artists who deserve the awards actually get the awards...

"Doin It And Doin It And Doin It Well"

--- watching 106 & Park and its the "flashback" video of the day. I was partying it up back when this song was hott! Years later LL would become one of my clients at an urban management company in NYC. He was -- how do you say -- kool to work with but not kool to work with? I mean in a lot of ways I learned mucho from him -- he is very well read and definitely knows the music biz like the back of hand but he was well, a chauvanist too. I actually had this conversation with him once and of course he did not agree with me but that was my opinion and always will be! I am not throwing dirt on L at all becuz overall I do like him as a person, highly respect his talent and give him his props as being a living legend and I feel lucky and honored that I was able to work with him.

Well, its chant time...
Until 2morrow...

Geesh...

Just one of those days where I feel totally inadequate...completely ineffective and a waste of an egg and sperm. I get this way once in a blue and I am convinced its in the cosmos -- meaning that somewhere far of into the galaxy the stars, moon, planets are all in on this huge conspiracy to let me know just whose boss 'round this here planet. Okay, I'll take it like a human! Bring it on planets!


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